Shiloh Green was once happy. As the girlfriend of Braxton Abbott, drummer for the popular YouTube band Contained Chaos, the future had seemed promising. They'd get married, have kids, have successful careers, and live happily ever after in the spotlight. She'd stop at nothing to help make his dreams become reality, starting with being his biggest fan.

That was the plan -- until Braxton's suicide shattered her world.

Now Shiloh is left to carry the heavy weight of guilt and pick up the pieces of what had once been a seemingly perfect relationship. She doesn't know how to live her life without him, and neither do his bandmates. As she struggles her way through her final year of high school, Contained Chaos' growing success comes with a new drummer, Dalton, who she can't help but resent. But Shiloh must learn how to move forward, and as she navigates through her grief, she begins to discover that her search for answers won't be easy -- and it shouldn't hold her back from truly living.

• We started tracking this book on November 30, 2022.
• This book was £0.00 when we started tracking it.
• The price of this book has changed 14 times in the past 941 days.
• The current price of this book is £1.99 last checked 8 hours ago.
• This lowest price this book has been offered at in the past year is FREE.
• The lowest price to date was FREE last reached on June 6, 2025.
• This book has been FREE 7 times since we started tracking it.
• The highest price to date was £1.99 last reached on June 10, 2025.
• This book has been £1.99 5 times since we started tracking it.
• This book is currently at its highest price since we started tracking it.

• Teen & Young AdultLiterature & FictionSocial & Family IssuesDepression & Mental HealthMental Illness
• Teen & Young AdultLiterature & FictionPersonal HealthDepression
• Teen & Young AdultLiterature & FictionSocial & Family IssuesSuicide

• Text-to-Speech: Disabled
• Lending: Disabled
• Print Length: 308 Pages
• File Size: 406 KB